Can I be crazy in saying?
Can I be crazy in asking?
Can I be crazy in believing?
I mean… but really, can I?
I have been processing this overwhelming emotion in regards to fundraising and certain deadlines approaching; $5000 by May 1 to be specific.
I was wondering how I was going to raise that? How was I going to talk to all these people? How was I going to plan these fundraising events? How was I going to send more letters?
I, I, I, I, I.
More weight was being added to it as the I statements settled in, and more isolation sat alongside with it. Fear, doubt, anxiety, uncertainty, and the rabbit hole of “maybe this is a sign I’m not suppose to go.” SO INCREDIBLY OVERWHELMING
So I paused, and found myself going to old journal entries, previous confirmations, and stood on that ground rather than trying to run from detail to detail in the things that are tangibly around us that we can try to control.
And this… this is what I found.
November 21 2020.
You don’t give a long list of instructions, but rather you awaken our spirit to the next. You call me to the WR application. I know that is next, but as for the details in the meantime?… that is for you to figure out (well you already have the details), but it is not my worry. YOU, the Lord of Lords, MY SAVIOR said The World Race. That’s what I am certain about. The end.
So, what’s my next? Obviously I said yes to the World Race, but what’s next to that?!
Somehow, it gets bigger, and requires even more stretching, and even more crazy faith.
I am believing and trusting that I will be 100% funded in 100 days.
The end.
I am CHOOSING to believe abundantly from God and His sons and daughters… because I can.
I am choosing to not only KNOW that He will provide because of the truth of His word, but I am taking it a step further to believe and trust that HE WILL PROVIDE. That’s faith in action, and I get to sound crazy *again* when it comes to this journey He has me on.
Faith makes us sure of what we hope for and gives us proof of what we cannot see. HEBREWS 11:1
So I am directly asking you to have CRAZY FAITH with me through every minute of this.
In a recent book that I have picked up it says this…“If the size of the vision for your life isn’t intimidating to you, there is a good chance it is insulting to God.” The God Ask; Steve Shadrach.
100% Fundraised in 100 days.
So yes, typing out that statement is intimidating to me…it sounds INSANE, and there is a lot that I might not be able to see with my eyes. YET, I choose to believe and have faith.
xoxo
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You are absolutely right! He has been so faithful in this fundraising journey, and I know that His timing is so deliberate. It is crazy to think that there was a part of me that was going to just “fill the gap myself”, but He pulled me back from that…. and since being home from camp I have been able to invite so many people into this journey that I would have boxed out had I taken control. It has been beautiful. AHH… let the beginning of these many lessons continue on.
I’m so glad you stepped out on faith to trust God with your funding! I read this a little past the 100 day mark, but you are so close to being fully funded!! Just a little over $1,100 away! What a testament to the power of God to accomplish something that seems so overwhelming and impossible! Yet you have hard evidence to show God was faithful…though not exactly on your time frame. Isn’t that just like God? He’s in charge of both the how and when departments. 🙂
sweet!